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And another Quarter begins..

this week i've been stucked in the IPM Meeting room for 4 straight days!i basically know every inch of that room already.i'm finally done with the FiT1 Training which was a total snooze fest.but i guess the whole certificate ceremony made it all worthwhile.rase mcm graduation all over again...oh n managed to build an oil rig out of junk..

so basically no work was done for 4 days...duduk denga tersengguk all day long.every chance i got,pegi lari check email for pending items.nasib baik la efficient cos i've finished most of my work last week(have to thank my training buddy.she taught me well)

today tesangkut lagi in that room cos preparation for Qtr End....jengjengjengggg!meaning late nites and weekends again.also daily dinner of mcd,pizzahut and occasional roti naan(if sape2 yg rajin nk drive klua from ou)
but the highlight of today's meeting was when my manager asked what's happened to the team?in other words,do we hate each other now?everyone mcm terdiam sekejap looking at each other.i know there are some issues going on.i do hear sumtimes their ramblings and arguements.personally,i dont have a problem with anyone.yes mmg ade yg screwed up my work recently,but i didnt take it personally.just went back to work the next day and think "its gonna be a good day.what happened yesterday can be fixed".need to stay positive if you're gonna spend most of your daytime with these ppl.

so when i looked at my bos' face,i feel sorry for him.he's tired of trying to close the gap.i know how hard he's tried to keep us close.what with all the bday celebs,wedding gifts,baby shower and the quarterly team bonding.fact!only my team does all these activities...sort of a work life balance.
anyway,got stuck at the office for an extra hour becos of this.everyone was asked if we weren't happy.as usual msian being msian,we tend to not speak our mind but rather play on the safe side.semua bagi reason busy and becos frustrated with system failure which relate to non frenly environment.in a way i guess its true.but i know for a fact there's a bigger issue.tapi tanaklah jadi batu api and get involved rite?i'm happy,EAF team is happy.that's all that matters. the rest of the team just have to work out their own issue.

at times when i do hear my team mate complain about another,i try to play the positive role.tapi tulah,there's only so much i can say.n it doesnt help if issue lama x settle,tambah lagi issue baru.on top of that,no responsibility to admit that u're wrong.so i guess if i'm in that situation,i'd probably go all red n explode.

like for me,this week has been pretty shitty as well.and i'm the type of person that if i'm upset about sumone or something,i'd prefer to have some away time from that person or put the issue on hold.i have other important things to think about so i'm not gonna let the negative vibe come near me.so i'll deal with that when i'm more in a calm mood.
but i think the most important thing is to keep work separate from personal.i see my 2 managers argue all the time,but at the end of the day,they keep it professional and left the argument at work.

i just hope tomorrow things will be different with the team.by next month,its gonna be a bigger team. how are we suppose to cope with more ppl if we cant even stand each other now?

when working life kicks in~

helloo...suke kan buat prangai mcm ni..at one time mcm rajin tak hengat nk update this blog.then suddenly disappear without a trace.n now i'm back and mengade2 resume. actually the reason i opened this blog again was becos i was thinking to delete it all.but then when i read back all my entries (some pretty stupid&hilarious) i've decided to keep it open. some sort of sentimental value..

maybe a recap of the past few months(almost a year!) wud be good to spice things up. first of all i managed to get a job at Schlumberger(i think most ppl know already) and just recently i received my confirmation letter...fuuh!alhamdulillah...cant believe 6mths in the company just flew.not to say i had a blast all thru out.i mean,yes there were late nites (seperti yg diwar2kan) and ofcos the constant language barrier seeing that i'm handling Algeria&Tunisia n most recently Libya. i have to brush up on my French to keep up with my MAs....ofcos my MAs.we have a sort of a love hate rship.depending on the time of the month.some days i feel like flying over there&strangle them.but when they're nice,they really are nice.i'm actually super takut when they migrate over to KL.

one thing i'm grateful for in the company is becos i have an awesome team and the best boss in the hub.seems more like a fren rather than a manager to me.plenty of laughs which makes staying late at the office a little more bareable.

enough about work...i can go on&on...

my wkends are usually filled with movies n food hangout session.i do see the same jokers week after week.but just becos i enjoy their company.i hardly see my regular frens nowdays.nak jugak lepak dgn dubliners kan.

i've recently joined kickboxing class...mengade rite?just becos i need sumthing healthy on a weekly basis.if not my life is all about work work work.not to mention the constant munching session at my workstation.the first class was a total nightmare.just shows how unfit i am.suruh pumping temengah2 like nyawa2 ikan..ade jugak one point tu rase nak quit sbb tak larat nk buat situp..wanted to get up and walkout.but becos ade zuha it gave me a bit of strength to hold on just a little bit longer.

my personal life has its ups and down.not gonna go into detail.let that be a sacred thing for me.

since i've been back(cehh mcm baru sgt je balik),ade la pegi a few vacations.started off with Penang HRC.owhh heaven nya tempat itu.promise myself i will go back again when i can afford the rockstar suite.had the best time there.not to mention the wonderful food n cheap dvds.i was actually up there twice!see how much i love Penang? :)
the most recent vacation was Bali...went there straight after habis Qtr End.so just imagine how tired i was.mmg sgt best.i loved every moment of it.also maybe becos i was surrounded but great fun ppl.Bali was just so breathtaking.

this month pun Qtr End jugak...maybe shud plan another short vacay straight after closing.spa day would be perfect.

Speaking off...i'm so addicted with spa rite now.be it facial,massage,mani pedi....sumtimes i can just make an impromptu appointment and head to a spa.dulu segan la jugak kene ajak org temankn.but now tanpa segan silu.i dont need a fren to go for a spa-ing session.its my alone time(accompanied by a masseuse that is)

you see how i like to ramble?ni yg malas nk start blog.supposed to mandi and solat.but once i start dah susah nk stop.so better fullstop now....now!

ps.must make this a weekly blog.dont want to be too committed.

15.08.1984

went to visit daddy today...after 5yrs.sorry it took me so long to come see u.just havent been home,n even when i did,it was too short of a break.promise to come visit u every chance i get from now on.
was kinda sad seeing nenek n mak ngah laying side by side with daddy.n just in front,abg lokman.how did all this happen within 5yrs of my absence?
as i stepped into arwah nenek's hse,i remember the last time i was there.it was when she passed away,and i had to hold my mum while we were both walking towards the house.1st time i saw my mum really cried her heart out.that old house really brought back a lot of memories.i knew how hard it was for mummy as it was for me.
the past week had been about lost.i had lost my favourite pet.my companion at times when i was alone.she had died to an unknown sickness.i could just kill the vet since they didnt help her.she meant everything to me.i had lost sumthin else as well but best kept to myself.
been keeping my head up.good thing i've got my best fren.he doesnt judge,just listen and offer good advice.not easy to find a friend like that.
not really in the mood for anything at the moment.just making up plans as i go.may be best to take it easy now..

2weeks gone by..

so this would be a post long overdue.as i've mentioned before,i'll try to update as often as possible since i'm currently unemployed.
haven't had the time mainly cos the other half came back for a 2week break.wouldnt say it was a holiday per say for him since he had to get out of the country to do his green card (ke work permit?) and had to bring back the company's laptop to do work from home (rajin sgt lah kn buat keje)

anyways,the past 2weeks had been fullfilling for me. been busy going around kl with nazar.trying to cover as much places as we can...yela,both of us tak penah dating kt msia n both pun tatau the places to go. i had to get a gps cos we had no clue how to get from point A to point B.sesat tak sesat,we managed to cover KLCC,the curve,pavillion(a few times),area bukit bintang...n mane tah lagi..okla tue considering we only had such short time..

we even got the time to head down to JB for the weekend. went to see my old house in Jalan Bulat.brings back so many memories.JB pun dah maju skarang.not like 10-20yrs ago.

we spent a day in Singapore.supposedly nk pegi Universal Studios. but due to their Independence Day weekend, there were no tickets left.sedih sgt...was so looking forward to it.we ended up going to the Night Safari instead which was not disappointing at all. aku nie biasela excited pegi tempat2 cam parade,festivals and even the zoo! the stupid part was that i left my frehkin camera....bodoh tak bodoh la kn..our first roadtrip in msia,n aku tak bawak camera.good thing the Night Safari had their own photographer.tp mencekik darah jugak.1 photo=20Sing dollars...haihhh...nak kate professional,takdela cantik sgt quality gamba dia.asal ade je..

within the 2weeks both of us sempat la jugak jumpe frens yg dah balik for good.yg balik skali with me semua tak kerja lagi.so always free to hangout.yg dah keje tu cam liat jugak la nk jumpe cos they're only free at nite and weekends biase nye family/couples day masing2.

the last night before nazar balik tu sempat la bawak dia pegi Jalan Damai to meet my friend.haiyaaa....the amount of budak2 bawahan umur was so banyak!i didnt feel comfortable being surrounded by them.adela terase mcm dah matured (not tua) skit.
n bukan nk kate aku ni diva ke ape,but it was blahdee panas regardless of the slight rain.maybe sbb the burning arang from the shisha was really close.muka mcm nk cair je.i only stayed for a little while sbb nk introduce my fren to nazar.

the day he left,aku jadi mcm perempuan gile sekejap.tah kenape emotional sgt...bukannye dia pegi mane pun.dublin je..my home for the past 4+yrs.atleast i know whats over there.not foreign to me anymore...tapi like i said,mmg gile lah sekejap.on the way balik from his place dok nangis2 dlm keta.mamat tol pun tekejut tgk muka aku.ape kena tah minah nie nangis siang2 hari..haha..

good thing i have good frens to cheer me up.due to sedih sgt,i decided to do a little shopping.tak plan pun.konon nk klua from my sedih bubble lah n teman my fren sorang ni nk beli belah.end up aku yg ikut nafsu...note to self:never shop without a clear conscience.

AAANNNNIIIEEEEEWWWAAAAYYYYYEEEEEEE...........lets forget that embarrassing moment.turns out i was fine 2days after.awal2 je rasa mcm kehilangan skit (yah i know,CORNY!)
i'm back to my normal self now.takdela sedih2 sgt.thanking the gift of technology,hari2 we're keeping in touch.but timing difference can be a bitch.slowly trying to cope with it.nasib baik la tak keje lagi,kalau tak,hari2 pegi keje mcm zombie sbb bergayut punye pasal.

at the moment i'm a little frustrated with PV.heard that everyone else dah dpt they're boxes except for me.padahal we sent them on the same day.but still batang hidung driver kotak tu pun tak nampak lagi.i'm in need of my dvds!bulan puasa nie takde bende sgt nk buat except layan movies in the day time.

membebel punye membebel dah panjang sgt pulak post nie.like i said earlier,its way overdue.tu yg extra panjang nie..enough for now!

a week gone by

big progress for me today.manage to drive to OU without any assistance...tipu skit,had to call sha before klua,but still i drove there alone.panic jugaklah at first sbb takut pegi tah mane2 tah kn.i'm not familiar with the roads here.byk sgt highway baru....duke lah,akleh lah...name nk pelik2 je.kawan2 suh beli satnav,tp its gonna be such a waste sbb that thing pn mahal gile.n i think by 1 or 2mths i should be able to get used to the roads again.

weekend haritu pegi tgk play.but i'm not gonna mention the title due to some sensitivity issues.tapi mmg dodgy lah.me n sha was laughing away at all the awkward moments.pegi pn sbb layankn kawan.dont get me wrong,i think it was quite interesting,tapi kalau nk tgk dgn mak ayah tu mmg takla.

at the moment i've become a part time driver to my nephews n niece.kene pickup from school everyday.i do enjoy it tho.borak2 with them about their day at school.its good that they still recognize me after all the years of being away from them.haritu masa pick up imran,the teacher thot i was gonna kidnap him sbb she didnt know me.imran pn is the kind of boy yg frenly dgn semua org.so takut lah he'll go up to a total stranger.

my jetlag is slowly wearing off...i think becos haritu ade dentist appointment at 11am,so mummy pagi2 dah bising2 suruh bgn.pegi dentist pn mcm zombie cos i felt like half awake n half dead. masa tgh tggu my turn,the tv was showing mis tres hermanes....hahaha....brings back memories masa kt ypm dulu.hari2 nk balik awal sbb nk catchup on the episode.well,not to say i go to class everyday,tp most days mmg camtu lah.cant believe they're actually showing it again.so pagi tadi pn i immediately turned on the tv sbb nk sambung tgk.its really addictive!

3more days before nazar comes back.i've been away from him for 11days now.kawan ckp i'm so lucky sbb baru kejap separated dah jumpe balik.skarang ofcourse lah...but he wont be coming back as often.hopefully again in november for his sister's wedding.

tomorow thot of going to midvalley,that is if i can find the way lah.tapi so far,i haven't sesat yet in kl.kene drive slow2 baca road sign. speaking of driving,i tell u its no surprise that there's always a major freak accident.msian drivers are absolutely psychotic! semua nk selit here selit there.aku pn takut nk drive!motorcyle tak payah nak cerita lah.bawak mcm tak sayang nyawa.gov should seriously improve the public transportation...byk sgt kereta.i wouldnt mind taking the train or bus.just as long as it gets me from point A to point B.n as long as dpt avoid all the roadbullies and mat rempits.

ayah's bday coming up this friday.going to have a family get together on sunday since everyone pn busy fri & sat.ayah pn not so well now.pagi tadi kene vertigo.kesian pulak kt dia.tu pn bole lagi nk pegi amik imran from school.ofcourse i didnt let him lah.so harini he stayed home the whole day.lepak2 garden with boscoe..

boscoe....i think he's ok with me now.dah tak terkam whenever he sees me.masa baru balik haritu,ayah chained him n told me to sit in front of him n borak.sesi suai kenal or sumthin like that...i mean,how do u exactly interact with dogs??i'm more of a cat person.so i sat in front of him lah...borak2 like an adult.mcm org gila pn ada.he just sat there staring at me.mesti dlm hati dia pn ckp aku gila ckp dgn binatang..
anyways,after a few conversations(more like "boscoe dah mkn?"or"boscoe nk play with ball"),he seems to warm up with me.bagus jugaklah cos when i come back late at night,he wont be barking away to kejut mummy n ayah.

iskk...sedar tak sedar,mcm panjang pulak this entry.have to keep it at minimal.oh well,i cant wait for this weekend.nk pegi dating in kl for the first time in 5yrs!better carik sumthing cute to wear :)

J.

Home for good!

well harrllllooooooowww!!hahahaha.....segan pulak nk update this blog.totally forgot it existed.i think its been more than a year?busy sgt with grown up life...keje,sports,kwn2 dan lain lain...
but see,now that i'm unemployed(left my job at GOAL),and back home for good(yahh...serious shit!) i have all d time in d world.well,until i start a new job lah.

just arrived last saturday.alhamdulillah,i can cope with the weather.tu pn sbb hujan everyday.hujan rahmat org kate.tp kat dublin pn hari2 hujan...so no difference to me at all.

yg paling best is dpt jumpe family...plus the new additions...mia,alesya(technically tak jumpe lg,but going to).mummy cooks everyday since i'm back.dimanjakan for the time being..ape2 mintak semua dpt...anak last la katekn.mak sayang lebih..hehe..

since most of my frens semua dah keje,so lepak session only starts at 7pm n above.tp for the ones yg still unemployed,pagi ptg siang mlm always there...just a quick phone call.tp tak bole frequent lah...seeing that i'm not making any money at the moment.dah besar panjang ni segan skit nk mintak duit kt mummy.good thing i have savings in euro.so slamat la for the next couple of months.

anyways,i've decide to resume this blog sbb...well basically i'm still jetlagged.meaning i dont sleep till 6am.maybe bile dah fix my hours and life dah stable,sesi meng-update pn akan kurang.
i'll try to keep my personal stuff away as much as possible.lets face it,ppl can easily use it against u and kalau bende2 tak elok tu tak patut la advertise kt rakyat.

oh yaaa...me & nazar still going on(incase ade soalan2 cepumas such as "julie balik,then nazar cane?")...trying to give the long distance thingy a shot.worked out well for naqi n sara.dah nk kawin dah pn derang.not to say that i have plans for that...jgn pandai2 make conclusions.just go with the flow..tanak lah cite pasal rship sgt...kawan2 says i'm sweet...tah celah mane tah...tipu belaka.mayb once in awhile bole la nk jiwang2,tp takde la ibarat cinta mati.kalau x jadi buat malu ako je.

i'm gonna keep this entry short.nanti high expectation on the next one pulak.suam2 kuku sudah. but i do hope it'll be more frequent that before...adios!

J.

counting the days!

only a few more days...hands shaking,heart pounding really fast,stomach grumbling(tak saba nk makan sedap)...i feel like time stops the closer i get to the day.

had a dream again.i left my handcarry at home...mum was screaming n yelling suh cepat balik...i rang the boy to go pack my luggage n hurry down to the airport...bodo tak bodo la kan??how would he know what to pack??hmm...come to think of it,he probably knows better than me..

am glad that this week is a short week.gives me an extra day for me to pack.well,really it gives him an extra day to help me pack.my job??merely pointing where everything is.he probably knows where everything is even better than me...so basically,my job is to sit tight n be quiet n once in awhile scream...YOUUUU!!!!!hahahaha...

had a nice weekend.went up to belfast.konon2 nak tgk bola,but had a different agenda.went to giant causeway the 2nd time.this time beli souvenior.masa muda2 dulu tak reti nak beli...
but i still love the place eventho its the 2nd visit.wind almost,well not almost,it actually blew me away...imagine kalau baby yg pegi,mesti dah sampai scotland...hehehe

15mins till lunch is over...as usual,org2 finance akan pegi berjalan sbb nak buang masa.its really pouring outside tapi sanggup jugak nak jalan...me?i prefer to sit in and mengembangkan perut.i've got less than a week to go fat.which means intensive eating.

back to work...or atleast pretend to :)

another update at last!

yes i'm still alive. apparently my laptop has gone crazy with the new internet connection. warning!DO NOT use SMART TELECOM. mmg ngoks tahap dewa..

i haven't updated anything since new year.lets just say the start of the year was whacked (n i dont mean in a good way). but things seem to be moving pretty fast for me.it's already the end of march and i'll be goin home soon...woohoo!

workwise has been really hectic.i think i might have to split myself in two just to get by.not that i dont love doing what i do,just sumtimes i think its a bit much.i should be getting a raise!cant really complain much knowing what with the economic crisis.better be thankful i still have a job to go to.

the new place has been working out really well for me.friday nites are the best.4 girls(soon to be 3..sobsob),good food,hell of a laugh...what more could i ask for?i'm starting to feel thankful for what i have.cant demand for anything more.

been seeing a lot of changes with my life.think things differently,starting to take full responsilibility with no complaints(well not none,i still do whine a little bit).i've become a little bit of a housewife even.u know the kind that prefers to stay at home and watch the telly and cook and clean.i've had my fun...perhaps too much fun?

just had a birthday.i dread being reminded i'm that much closer to 30.can't i just be 16 again??and maybe by some miracle just stay that way.this year just means i've reached my cut off point (i'm not gonna mention what)

anyways,my hsemate back in cheras just had a baby.i told her i'm not gonna believe it till i see it for meself.she's probably just making all this stuff up.tah2 culik anak org seblah tu pastu saje nk bagi jeles kan??no way jose,ain't gonna believe it...in denial sgt2 nie...

so...my plans for my short hols back home...none of the shopping bullshit.i'm going to makan like there's no tomorrow.revenge for the past 2/3yrs that i haven't been home.dont be surprised if i'm come back here looking like mrs potato head.takpe...janji puas.sumpah tak saba...silap2 tak balik dublin...hehehe

me n 'my man' (cewahhh...cam macho sgt je) is getting on very well.i think we're at a stage where we can be absolutely comfortable with each other (does that mean even fart at each others' faces??)i just hope it lasts....tanak la citer all this mushy2 stuff....i'm just not that type of person.n i dont wanna jinx it either.just go with d flow.plus,i prefer not showing off all the good stuff that i have.let other ppl be the judge of that.

i've come to the point where i dont really care what others think, but more about what i know is right.call me selfish/self centred,but atleast i stll have a conscience.

that's it!till then...

Bid farewell to 2008

this is it...last day of the year 2008(and still working).as i was walking from salthill to the office with my manager, we discussed on our new year's resolution. he plans to work out more and get married.as for me,i told him i dont think i'm gonna make any resolutions this year.never managed to keep any of them...except to travel more.

this year alone i went to madrid,london(yet again),ibiza,paris and amsterdam.i think thats fairly good.next month i'll be goin to florence,so something to look forward to.

i was supposed to go home this year,but because of some miscommunication,had to cancel it.but definately going home early next year(got my flight ticket already!)been dreaming about home more frequently now.this week alone,i dreamt bout my parents 2 nights in a row.and its only wednesday!i suppose it's a huge sign to tell me to go home.i really am looking forward to it.i've missed so much already.

speaking about missing so much, i've missed 1 of my classmate's wedding.saw their pictures posted at fb and just looking at all my frens,made me really miss home even more.congrats to Nuar&Serene..hope to see u soon, in February was it?

so tonite'S new year's eve party will be at the loft.thank god i live really close.no need to worry bout getting a cab home or anything.the streets will be empty and god knows how broke i am rite now!hence no shopping for the current sale :(

looking back, i have no regrets in the decisions i've made. if i had the chance to do it all over again, i would do it all the same.except maybe the studying part.but i must say,i've improved on attending classes.but dont get me wrong,i'm still gonna fail...hahaha!will try to do better the next term(yeah yeah...thats what we always say)

just a few more hours before the year ends..can't believe 1 year has gone by so quickly.and next year,i'll be a quarter of a century!woahh,seems pretty old ain't it?but age is nothing but a number.as long as i feel young and stupid,i'm good to go.

so toodles 2008,it's been great.thanks for having us!